mE, MySeLf & GOD

"Toxic" is the term nurses (and other medical professionals) use when there are a lot to do. Recently, that’s just how my studies go… TOXIC! I have this thesis that I have to work on fast enough to be able to finish the first three chapters within the end of this month and it feels like my time is running out. Then I still have the lectures to cope up with. Well, anyway, I love lectures. I don’t know but I really do… Perhaps it has something to do with being more adept at medical terms and stuff like that…

But then again, there are the hospital duties… No, don’t get me wrong. I DON’T hate hospital duties. It’s just that duties make me feel inadequate, being a student, you know (and being at the bottom of the surgical food chain, as Dr. Alex Karev puts it)… I just feel that there are still so much to learn, and there are a lot more that I do not know… and yet, the Board Exam is nearing… OMG! I’m NOT ready yet…!!!

Another thing that really makes me tired is the GRAVEYARD SHIFT (again). Well I like the fact that I get exposed a lot this semester at BRH because there are so much to do in there. I recently had another case at the ER. But it’s just that I can’t help getting all tired and cranky especially when my duty is at 3pm-11pm or worst, 11pm-7am… I just might start loosing my head or something! I mean, what date is it again?! (See my point?)

But I know that I really musn’t complain. After all, I am a nursing student. And in the near future, if I become a nurse (God-willing) I would have to put up with a lot more pressure. And pressure I must learn to take. You see, I have this vision of myself in a white nun’s habit, taking care of abandoned children in a small hospital unit owned by lets see… The Sisters of Healing congregation? =) Gee… that sounds…. I don’t know, odd?! Anyway, the point is if that odd thing ever happens, I would have to take the pressure! I might as well accept the fact that pressure is part of life… just like graveyard shift is part of my nursing student life….