mE, MySeLf & GOD

i dunno if i’m just late to hear the news (as usual) but i read in time mag that isiah washington who plays dr. preston burke in grey’s anatomy got fired from the show! it’s because of something he said about t.r. knight (plays dr. george o’malley) who turns out is a self-confessed gay!!!

and i thought burke was a nice guy? well i knew about his previous blunders (involving mcdreamy) but i thought he said sorry and everything’s smooth sailing (turns out it really ain’t that smooth)… plus i thought o’malley wasn’t gay… he denied it in the first season… and i also thought burke and o’malley were close… in the second season, burke even invited o’malley to live with him and cristina (yang)…… now isiah’s saying o’malley (t.r. kmight) should be dumped, not him…

it’s like day-dreaming christopher plummer & julie andrews’ love team during your childhood and you wake up one day and find out they’re not really married to each other… and that they are just friends (but they still kiss and hold hands anyway, only it’s just in front of the camera… how sad!)…

but the worst part is that i don’t know what will happent to the tandem of dr. preston burke and dr. cristina yang… what a pity! i mean, they are my favorite couple! if i’m not mistaken, they’re supposed to get married… i even saw cristina’s wedding gown in a previous issue of the ‘time’…. sad… sad… sad…

ok… so back to reality… what was i doing? oh, got to study mcn again… enough burktina for today.   

i dunno if i’m just late to hear the news (as usual) but i read in time mag that isiah washington who plays dr. preston burke in grey’s anatomy got fired from the show! it’s because of something he said about t.r. knight (plays dr. george o’malley) who turns out is a self-confessed gay!!!

and i thought burke was a nice guy? well i knew about his previous blunders (involving mcdreamy) but i thought he said sorry and everything’s smooth sailing (turns out it really ain’t that smooth)… plus i thought o’malley wasn’t gay… he denied it in the first season… and i also thought burke and o’malley were close… in the second season, burke even invited o’malley to live with him and cristina (yang)…… now isiah’s saying o’malley (t.r. kmight) should be dumped, not him…

it’s like day-dreaming christopher plummer & julie andrews’ love team during your childhood and you wake up one day and find out they’re not really married to each other… and that they are just friends (but they still kiss and hold hands anyway, only it’s just in front of the camera… how sad!)…

but the worst part is that i don’t know what will happent to the tandem of dr. preston burke and dr. cristina yang… what a pity! i mean, they are my favorite couple! if i’m not mistaken, they’re supposed to get married… i even saw cristina’s wedding gown in a previous issue of the ‘time’…. sad… sad… sad…

ok… so back to reality… what was i doing? oh, got to study mcn again… enough burktina for today.   

it’s her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i’m falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she’s all that I see and she’s all that I need
and i’m out of my league once again

it’s a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i’m falling but it’s no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it’s frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i’d rather be here than on land
yes she’s all that i see and she’s all that i need
and i’m out of my league once again

it’s her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i’m falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it’s frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i’d rather be here than on land
yes she’s all that i see and she’s all that i need
and i’m out of my league once again

i actually had a taste of the REAL world… outside the comfort of our cozy house… away from the security of my family…. and INTO the streets!

no, i wasn’t begging for alms! but i was all sweaty and cranky and itchy — thanks to the merciless sunlight which almost actuually fried me. i was with my fellow HIM (Hermilando I. Mandanas) scholars, campaigning for his (mandanas’) re-election.

‘magandang umaga po… mga scholars po kami ni congressman mandanas. suportahan po natin s’ya sa darating na eleksyon.’, we said as we smiled at people. what really moved me were the different reactions of people. a lot of them told us: ‘ineng, kahit hindi n’yo na are ipangampanya eh panalo na are.’, which was actually good for us because it meant that they will indeed be voting for congressman mandanas. but then, a considerable number of people actually asked us: ‘ineng, wala gang nakasipit na pang-sigarilyo?’, to which i told them: ’sa serbisyo na lang po babawi si congressman.’ (but i was actually temted to tell them wryly: ‘hindi ho kami bumibili ng boto!’)

it should have been a very loathful experience — because it WAS really TIRING! imagine, we had to walk all over batangas city — MH del pilar, p.burgos, evangelista, p.gomez, p.zamora, c.tirona, rizal ave — from eight o’clock in the morning ’til four o’clock in the afternoon. for hours, we had to knock on houses, introduce ourselves, ask the people if we could place congressman’s streamers on their gates and if they could please support congressman mandanas in the upcoming elections. our only break was when we returned to batangan plaza to have some rest.

but you know what’s surprising? it WASN’T loathful… not at all! and what’s weirder is that i’m actually willing to repeat the whole experience! it was a wonderful experience (except for the scorching summer heat)!

lastly, perhaps i liked it because i was doing it for a very kind person in the person of congressman mandanas. after all, i am his scholar. plus he’s very much supportive of our family. he’s really kind to people. it really showed how much people love him during our campaign yesterday. ‘naku, napakabait at napakaayos nitong si mandanas.’, people would say. and i would smile at them in agreement.

oh well… the thing is… my legs hurt! i need some ointment! T.T

(dedicated to ‘mcburkey’???)

what day is it

and in what month

this clock never seemed so alive

i can’t keep up

and i can’t back down

i’ve been loosing so much time

’cause it’s you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to loose

and it’s you and me and all of the people

and i don’t know why

i can’t keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that i want to say

just aren’t coming out right

i’m tripping inwards

you got my head spinning

i don’t know where to go from here

’cause it’s you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to prove

and it’s you and me and all of the people

and i don’t know why

i can’t keep my eyes off of you.

there’s something about you now

i can’t quite figure out

everything she does is beautiful

everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to loose

and it’s you and me and all of the people

and i don’t know why

i can’t keep my eyes off of you (2x)

what day is it

and in what month

this clock never seemed so alive…

(dedicated to ‘mcburkey’???)

what day is it

and in what month

this clock never seemed so alive

i can’t keep up

and i can’t back down

i’ve been loosing so much time

’cause it’s you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to loose

and it’s you and me and all of the people

and i don’t know why

i can’t keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that i want to say

just aren’t coming out right

i’m tripping inwards

you got my head spinning

i don’t know where to go from here

’cause it’s you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to prove

and it’s you and me and all of the people

and i don’t know why

i can’t keep my eyes off of you.

there’s something about you now

i can’t quite figure out

everything she does is beautiful

everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people

with nothing to do

nothing to loose

and it’s you and me and all of the people

and i don’t know why

i can’t keep my eyes off of you (2x)

what day is it

and in what month

this clock never seemed so alive…

The sad look in your eyes

Your smiling in disguise

Your feelings that are hidden,

You’re holding deep within.

The way you look at me

My beauty which you see

Your feelings that are hidden

You’re holding deep within.

The touch that is so gentle

As if t’was by an angel

Your feelings that are hidden

You’re holding deep within.

The things that you won’t tell

You hide inside your shell

Your feelings that are hidden

You’re holding deep within.

How long will I be waiting

For you to tell me so

The love that you are feeling

Please tell, I have to know.

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.

LOVE THEM ANYWAY…

If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish, immature.

BE KIND ANYWAY…

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies.

SUCCEED ANWAY…

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.

BE HONEST AND FRANK ANYWAY…

What you spend years building, some could destroy overnight.

BUILD ANYWAY…

If you find serenity and happiness, some maybe jealous.

BE HAPPY ANYWAY…

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow.

DO GOOD ANWAY…

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough.

GIVE THE WORLD THE BEST YOU’VE GOT ANYWAY…

You see in the final analysis, it’s between YOU & GOD

It was NEVER between YOU & THEM ANYWAY…

-SAINT MOTHER TERESA OF CULCUTTA

1. Tumangkad….

anu ba? baket parang lahat na lang ng tawo sa paligid ko weh tumatangkad…. pero baket ako, kahit isang inch lang wala??? hindi man lang ako nakaabot ng five feet???? sabi ko nga, kapag nauso ang pagpapadagdag ng buto sa tibia o kahet sa femur weh magpapadagdag ako! teka, totoo ba ang stand high??? sa ngaun weh spirulina na lang muna, twice a day….

2. Makapasa sa Nursing

xemrpe naman…. ayoko atang mawindang ang studies ko dahil mayroon akong ‘di naipasa… sa ngaun naman weh malau-lau pa akong bumagsak…. pero ‘di ko alam kung may scholarship pa rin ako dahel ng phc!!!! amputek…. baket ba eung mga inaaral kong pustules at macules weh ‘di isinasama sa exam?!?

3. Makapag-med proper (at pumasa!)

wala weh…. napukaw ang dating kagustuhang mag-pedia…. sana lang weh kaya namen financially… at kaya ko intelectually! balak pa ata nina papa na sa ust ako mag-med…. maganda raw doon…. asus ko!!!! at para namang henyo akong makakayang mag medicine sa UST!! helow! ust po eun…. lugar ng mga matatalino?!?

4. Makapunta sa Austria

wala lang…. pangarap pa ren…. baka sakali… kaso ‘di ako marunong mag-German…. or pwede rin naman kung talagang ‘di makaya sa austria weh sa vermont na lang — sa trapp family lodge…. hekhek….

5. Maging ‘Mrs. Maria Victoria Mendoza- von Trapp

isang pangarap na siguradong hanggang pangarap na lamang…. pero baket? libre naman mangarap kaya sige lang…. kung si mae weh nangangarap maging Mrs. Mary Mae-Radcliff weh bakit ‘di ako pwedeng maging Mrs. von Trapp?! toink!

6. Ma-interview ang Pope

actually sana si Pope John Paul II…. weh kaso 6 feet under na xa…. kaya owkei na rin si Pope Benedict XVI…. basta sa st. peter’s basilica, owkei na eun….

7. Ma-feature sa Reader’s Digest

wala lamang…. naisip ko lang xe nagbabasa ako ng reader’s digest kagabi….

ala na akong maisep…. masaya na naman kase ako sa buhay ko sa ngaun… eun nga lang, 4 ft 10 inches parin lang ako hanggang ngaun…. imagine 4′9" na ako nung first year high school… ibig sabihen, 1 inch lang ang itinaas ko sa loob ng 5 yrs?! apaka-abnormal wah!

After the bloody semi-final exams (particularly in LOGIC), Lyceum celebrated it’s 40th year of being founded. All Rozzette, Mae and I (also Gia, Roan, Puchi, & Elize) did were show up in shcool for attendance, then go straight to Clarin’s to play the guitar, eat, laugh, play the guitar…. play the guitar…. and play the guitar (weird how much alluring guitar-playing is considering how painful it can get especially when your fingers get calluses and you realize you suddenly have a stiff neck)…

With nothing much to do (except for helping Mama in the household chores, selling Sierra Madre, and practicing for our Chapel’s foundation day), I just thought of blurting out all my thoughts…. ^_^

THE ABSURDIY OF BOOKS:

*Why is my PHC book’s title "FUNDAMENTALS of Nursing" and the Logic book’s "BASIC Logic" when I find it very hard to comprehend the topics?! Try reading the chapter about COMPLETE PHYSICAL ASSESSMENT, then try getting the OBVERSE OF THE CONVERSE OF THE CONTRADICTORY OF THE SUB-ALTERN OF THE INVERSE of a poorly-constructed sentence like ALL LOGIC TEACHERS ARE LATE-COMERS…. and you’ll realize what I am talking about!  I mean…. is that a joke or something?

*Why did our Ethics and Issues book mentioned and even discussed in detail PATIENT NON-COMPLIANCE when at one part (as you are cramming for the exams) you would read that it shouldn’t even be in a nurse’s vocabulary?! Duhhh…..

*Why do I find reading novels soooo exciting while my school books give me a darn headache?! And the sad part is that I remember a lot when I read fiction-books but when it comes to remembering things about veracity, autonomy, and integrity I tend to forget!

MY DREAMS IN LIFE:

*To go to Austria…. or Canada…. or UK….

*To be a nun…. or a doctor…. or a teacher…. or even a Broadway actress… err if not, at least an extra!

*To stay celibate (as a nun)…. or marry a VON TRAPP….

*To support my parents (in their old age) and my little sister (in her studies)…..

*To buy a villa of my own….

*To learn how to ride a horse (by myself)….. or play the violin…. or skate on ice….

*To meet DAME JULIE ANDREWS in person….. or CHRISTOPHER PLUMMER…. or the VON TRAPP CHILDREN (who happens to be here in the Philippines… but alas, they’d give concerts at the PICC and MOA and I won’t be able to see them!!!!)

*To actually talk to GOD/JESUS CHRIST…. but I don’t wanna see Him looking ghostly… I easily get scared….

*To learn how to speak German…. or French…. or Italian…. or Spanish….

*To go to Rome and have an audience with the Pope….

REASONS FOR BEING HAPPY:

*God….

*My family….

*My friends….

*My talents….

*Our ‘87 Pajero…. and our ‘84 Benz….

*Television…. and the Computer….

*My piano…. and my guitar…..

*The Sound of Music….

*Mass every Sunday….

REASONS FOR BEING STRESSED-OUT:

*PHC….

*Logic….

*PE….

*Upcoming finals….

*Upcoming tuition fee rise (again)….

*My bank account (I haven’t deposited a single centavo yet!)….

*Not seeing sOtz for quite sometime…. (when did I last saw him?!?)

*Not gaining weight (despite of eating a lot)…. and not getting taller!….

*Not being able to upload my debut pics because of unusable scanner…..

*My pimples…. and my eye bags!!!….

*All those who I consider cute are in the seminary….

SERVEY (Conscience interviewing me):

*Are you happy?

YES.

*Are you tall?

NO.

*Are you pretty?

IS THAT A JOKE OR AN INSULT?

*Are you sexy?

NEXT QUESTION PLEASE….

*Are you allowed to have a boy friend?

NO.

*Do you want to have a boy friend?

NO.

*Do you have friends?

YES.

*How many are they?

PLENTY.

*Do you like to be a nurse?

SORT OF.

*What do you really want to be someday?

A CLINICAL INSTRUCTOR… OR A PEDIATRICIAN.

*Do you really want to become a nun?

SORT OF…. IT DEPENDS ON GOD’S WILL.

*Which do you prefer, American or British accent?

DEFINITELY BRITISH!

*Have you ever been in love?

NOPE.

*Will you ever be in love?

I DON’T KNOW… JUST NOT AT THE MOMENT.

*How do you feel about Sotz?

WEIRD.

*How do you feel about =pc88=?

OH… I FORGOT ABOUT THAT ONE.

*Are you sleepy?

NO.

*What do you want to do?

LISTEN TO SOME MUSIC.

*Super Inggo or Captain Barbell?

CAPTAIN BARBELL.

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